Urge to Molest “if”

What \”if\” I hadn’t molested her that on that bus—? One year ago. While on the bus during a business trip, I meet a quiet girl with a well-developed body, that despite the perfect situation, I decided not to molest. However, from that day forth I was plagued with powerful urges to molest. I struggled every day to hold-back these urges, but one day on the way home- by coincidence, I saw that quiet girl and her friends again. Flashbacks of how I felt on that day return… I was suddenly controlled by my body’s instinct, and couldn’t take my eyes off of the girls. And then— — — —the repressed urges could no longer be stopped!